Unproductive Day

Today has got to be the most uneventful day ever. I woke up at 1 to give Row the rent check and it was too hot to go back to bed so I went online. Played Restaurant City and folded cranes for 11 HOURS. I also made a playlist of my favorite Korean songs. Yeyy. This whole time I forgot about the business with bb. Things are still developing but it feels like a trick. Soon, we’ll see how it ends.

I’ll Listen Because I’m a NG

I don’t understand what it is with the guys in my life and wanting to fix things. Maybe they’re nice guys, but I think they’re womanizers who want to seem like they’re nice guys. I’m not going to get into the details of how many guys have been that way. But roughly two hours ago, one of those guys contacted me wanting to talk. Things didn’t end well last summer so I stopped talking to him.  I removed everything that reminded me of him and I was pretty content with how I left it but his contacting me came out of nowhere. He says that the military has forced him to man up and that I probably don’t want to hear what he has to say but he wants to talk. And me being meticulous doesn’t help the fact that I tend to over analyze things so I’m not sure of what he wants. I’m not looking to be friends again but by the way he wrote, it kind of feels like he does. See, my attention to detail is not helping me out at all.

Being the NG that I am, I’m going to hear what he has to say. Let’s see how this goes.

Okay, I lied

So when you asked me how I got your number after I lost all my contacts, I totally didn’t know what to say. I made up this lie that I had your number in my old phone… You obviously knew I was lying and were trying to figure it out. Truth is, I looked through our chat logs of when we first talked and that’s where I found you number. I felt so bad when you recited my phone number. I remembered your number before but I guess I forgot it after what happened. I’ll memorize it again for you. Jeez, I don’t even know my parents’ number by heart. But yes, I felt that I had to get this out. My apologies for being a retard.

I don’t care eh eh eh eh eh

That’s right. I ain’t going to give a shit about you anymore. I’ve spent all this time being a good friend to you but when it comes to this one person, I seem to disappear from any of your thoughts. I haven’t talked to you WEEKS. Okay, we talk on aim but it doesn’t work if I’m the one doing most of the talking. And you probably won’t even see this since you’re too fixated on other things to notice. If I don’t seem to be worth the time, you aren’t worth it either.

New Plan

When I started this WordPress I thought I was going to use it pretty often. But just like my Xanga, I’ve neglected it. I’m going to start blogging again until I sort things out with the FRA blog and this will be used for more personal stuff seeing that I doubt FRA readers would like to know that I painted my nails to look like strawberries. I’m also going to try to take a picture everyday. Unfortunate that I don’t leave the house everyday though… But that should change once I get back to school. Or maybe I’ll upload something I’m working on on Photoshop. I’ll leave with the banner I just made for forum signatures.

Worst Day EVER

For the day of Monday 20080126

I rushed out of my apartment at 8:20am to UV for my Bus10 midterm. I think I did pretty good for having not touched the book til the midterm. Yeyy for open book!! Go to math discussion and then walked over to housing to inquire about the fee I was charged. Stupid housing said they needed paperwork of my cancellation and that my phone call wasn’t good enough. So I’m down a little over $1k this quarter. The day gets worse. I’m on the block of my apartment and I check for my keys to find that I left them in the apartment. I call and text Kat but she doesn’t answer so I walk all the way to check if she was home, but she wasn’t. Kat calls and says that she’ll be home at 2:30. I was worrying sick about Button because I thought he was sick. So I went to Pentland to study for the CS midterm.  When I arrived there was a girl in Jon’s bed so I felt really awkward that I read in the lounge. I finally get home at 3 to a stable looking Button. I don’t remember what I did til dinner. I wanted to bring Button to campus and study with Justin. I waited for the trolley with Button for 15 minutes. It was freeeeeeeezing cold and it hadn’t come so I put Button back in my room and progressed to dinner without him. After dinner I headed home because I didn’t want to rely on Kat to take me home. I got a sandwich and juice from Scotty’s and went home. When I got off the trolley, I got my keys only to find out that my apartment key was missing. It was missing. The whole key fell off. My other keys were still there but the apartment key was missing. Tragic, I know. So I call Jon to help me look for it but I was no where in Pentland or Scotty’s. I wait 30 minutes in the freezing cold at 9:30pm for the trolley to come back so I can see if it’s there. I was so sad that I ate my sandwich which was supposed to be my lunch the next day. My key wasn’t on the trolley so I just headed back to campus. Walked to Lothian with Jon and it wasn’t there either. Studied math with Justin til 12 and Kat took me home. Now that I look back, it doesn’t sound that bad but when I was experiencing it, I was miserable.

Button in Danger!!

It’s been a little over 2 weeks since I’ve gotten my new pet from Philip and Brian. And in that time, I think I’ve been doing a very good job in taking care of him despite the fact that I feed him a bit too much. I play with him a lot. I go to class and I come home right after to check on how he’s doing. He’s a really good bunny even though he runs under my bed if I don’t watch him. And he has still to learn where to poo and pee. Thank goodness he has never peed on my carpet, only Phil’s, which was the first place he went to. I get the most joy when he binkys. “Binky” is the cute term used to describe the jumping, twisting, head-flicking movement that rabbits do when they are feeling happy and playful. I just laugh out loud whenever he does it. He is a load of responsibility though. I wanted to start with a plant, then a pet, but Phil and Brian thought I was ready to take care of a living creature. I gave up a weekend retreat to Big Bear with CSA just so I can help familiarize him with my room and me. Jon is now calling me obsessed with my bunny but I like to think of it as great affection. Button even shows affection to me sometimes by nibbling on me. It hurts but I deal with it because I love him. So this weekend I brought him home because my sister wanted to see him. Who knew that he would receive so much love especially from my father. My father was constantly playing with him and feeding him. We fed him apples and cabbage because I didn’t think I needed to bring his rabbit food for 2 days. So now here I am back in Riverside with my little bunny. After I put new newspaper in his corner, I took him out of the travel box and put him back into his home. He didn’t try to escape or anything; there was no scratching at the box. I walk over to check on him a few times and I’d see him sitting quietly. And when I left, he stayed the same, but normally he would try to break out. I was curious of why he was acting this way so I took him out and I see that he had something wrong with his poo. So I googled “bunny diarrhea” and I think he has runny stool. Symptoms include irregular behavior such as not running around as normal, I also found out that he could die if diarrhea came along. So I concocted this rehydration solution consiting of water, sugar, and salt. I think he’s back to normal now. He binkied for like a second and got under my bed, and, and, he knows how to jump in and out of his box, but that’s all I need to know that he’s on the way to recovery. Now he’s asleep. It’s so cute, you can see him rock back and forth, but that’s just his breathing. Now to figure out how to bunny proof my bed…

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009

2008 has got to be the most memorable year for me by far. There were many MANY great moments in 2008. But there were also many not so great moments. I got my heart “broken” 4 times. I was used 2 times. My disappointing grades as I finished high school. The faces of my parents when I didn’t get into USC. I tried to mend a broken relationship but failed. I did a lot of stupid things. But through all of this, I became a stronger person.

Now onto the happy side!

The first manual car I drove was a s2000. Thank you Khangbigbro!!

When I got Spencer Jr. We’ve had plenty of fun adventures.

I won a MacBook and $100 from Power106.

I think I’ve downloaded more music in 08 than ever before.

I will definitely never forget fainting. I went in to donate blood at the Alhambra branch very optimistic about doing something good. I’ve donated blood before so I had nothing to be afraid of. I went through the normal procedures and after I just layed there for a few minutes. They finally let me get up. I think I might have gotten up too fast because I felt dizzy and everything went white (idk why they call it “blacked out”). I woke up a few seconds later. I knew it was a few seconds because the nurse was laying me back on the bed thing. Fainting is so freaking painful!! I felt like throwing up and my head was pounding. But it ended maybe 3o minutes later. Thank goodness my friend didn’t come with me.

The day I was finally able to go clubbing, stay out past city curfew without fear (I live right next to the PD), and VOTE; pretty much the day I legally became an adult. My 18th birthday wasn’t a big celebration. But I was excited for it. My awesome friend, Scott Tang, took me out to dinner at Din Tai Fung (I go there all the time now) and had our usual talks of love and relationships. It was also actually the first time we hung out for real instead of me just going to his shows so it was even more special.

I also attempted to go clubbing. But this one event, I didn’t want to go to dance, I wanted to go to see Se7en. It was his American debut preview at Highland. Thing is, it was 21+. My friend had it all planned out, got me an ID. At the last minute she couldn’t make it. But she also told me she might be able to make it so I just waited outside with my friend who was also not 21. We walked around Hollywood for a while but decided to head back and wait for my friend. We stood outside the door and I heard Se7en sing -sadness- The whole night was a disaster and I never got to see but the person I was with assured me that it was just another adventure.

FBLA and SkillsUSA competition will always be in my heart. I practically dedicated my life to competition. I’m so thankful to have had Gary Su and Adam Ragus with me for International Business. Even though we didn’t make it to Nationals, State in Irvine was really fun with you guys there. SkilsUSA was where I shined. Thank you Jason, Gia, Charlene, and Mr. Saccone for their guidance. I went in one last time with the success of attending Nationals the year before.  Although the Opening & Closing Ceremonies Team fell apart, I still had Tech Math (I am nerd, I am proud) and I went to State for that. I thought I got it, I thought I got first and I thought I would be able to go to Nationals again. I got second. I got beat by a white guy -shamed- But I was happy and that’s all that mattered. It was a great end to competing in FBLA and Skills.

Another reason I’ll remember 08 the most is because of graduation. Although the day wasn’t as happy as I wanted it to be it marked the end of one journey and the beginning of a new one.That night also sparked a new relationship which was the reason for my what seemed to be endless happiness for a few months. And instead of going to Speedzone for Grad Night, I went out with a friend. Sadly his car was not functional. We ended up walking half the time. His friends took us to Mt Wilson and I got to see the lovely view of the city lights. Then we went back to Alhambra and walked around some more in the middle of the night. Then at 6 or so AM he borrowed a friend’s car and we went to Hermosa Beach to see the sunrise. But silly thing is , when we got there, we realized that we were on the west coast and the sun rises in the east. At least I got to see dolphins.

I’ll never forget meeting my 2 most favorite musicians in the world, Jay Chou and Se7en. (Alright I met Jay in December of 2007 but I just wanted to mention him XD) Jay Chou’s autograph signing at Chong Hing in SG was so hectic. I have never seen so many fobs in my life and I live in MPK. I brought all 10 Jay Chou CDs I had in hopes that he could sign all of them, but we were only allowed one. Thank goodness I had my sister with me. She got the tour poster and I got 我很忙 autographed. Afterwards a couple of friends and I walked around to look for Jay’s escape route. In the back, we found his limo humvee. His driver let us sit in it and lied to us that he’d take us to SF and all the other places with Jay. But we had to get out once Jay was done. I stood by the humvee and managed to snatch a paparazzi picture of him -dies- Meeting Se7en was a bit less hectic. They actually had lines and was well regulated. When I finally got to him I was so happy. I was able to speak to him in English and I was so happy he understood. I can’t wait for the 2 of them to come back to LA!! And although I didn’t officially meet them, it was still awesome to be in their presence (cue fangirl).

Kollaboration 8 was the first Kollaboration I worked in and the first I attended. It was an amazing event. I’ve never seen so many Asian stars together at once: James Kyson Lee, Aaron Yoo, James Hong, Tiger JK, and a lot more. Kollaboration is the biggest Asian American movement toward mainstream media and I am so glad that I’m a part of it. The show sold out a few days before the actual date. There were many amazing performers and I loved meeting them. Although I didn’t get to see the whole show, everyone I knew who attended told me it was great.

Wong Fu Productions and Far*East Movement’s International Secret Agents show is a big highlight of 08. I’ve been planning an AA concert since junior year but I never go around to it (yeah, procrastinate much??). And I guess it was time someone else did it. And the funny thing is, everyone who performed at ISA was exactly who I wanted in my concert. FM, Tatum Jones, Quest, Jennifer Chung, Magnetic North. Best part was that I got a great view of the show and met the performers backstage. WF and FM also took the staff and volunteers out to KT after the show. Ling mong cha FTW!! I was fortunate to be a part of it’s production even thought it was a small part.

Warped Tour was off the hook. I had never been in such hot weather until that day in Pomona. I got to see so many amazing bands: We the Kings, Relient K, Story of the Year, and more. I knew We the Kings when they were called Broken Image. I’m such a devoted fan -tear- I only hated Warped because it was so hot and Jeffree Star is a betch.

Since my mother finally let me take the car out by myself, I’ve been going to a lot of concerts. I remember Burning Tree Project’s CD release, Bandemonium (NLT, V Factory, Menudo), Goodbye Elliot, Say No More, Metro Station, Paramore,Sam Geunjin Kang’s CD release and more that I can’t remember at the moment. I loved the show with Bidwell because when they did “Sugar”, a couple of fans threw sugar packets onto the stage… it was awesome!! But the best show has to be Varsity Factory. It actually wasn’t a show, it was the filming of their music video for “Future Love.” You can see my hand me in the music video.

Universal City Walk has got to be remembered. Hailey brought me to a UCR class of ’12 SoCal meet up where I made many many new friends. The 30+ of us at dinner at Bucca di Beppo and then ventured off in little groups to browse. We somehow ended up upstairs and decided to take the elevator down. Imagine 20 people fitting into a elevator, tell me it’s not a disaster waiting to happen. But the elevator did not beep and the door closed so it seemed fine. But certain people chose to jump. They jumped once, nothing happened. So the jumped again… I don’t remember if it was then or another jump but the elevator stopped moving… That was when all hell broke loose… well, kind of ish. We were all laughing and giggling thinking that everything will be fine. We pushed the red emergency button and they were so slow at rescuing us. We joked around for a while but we all quieted down when it got really hot and a few had difficulty breathing. The guys managed to open the elevator door for air but that wasn’t enough. We finally got out after about 45 minutes. But even in that time of despair, someone managed to make us laugh, “Imagine there are newscasters waiting out side and when we walk out ’20 first years from UCR were trapped inside an elevator… blah blah blah’ ” Good memories.

I’ll also remember the UCR bonfire. It was where I tried swimming in the ocean but didn’t move an inch. Damn you tide -shakes fist- It was where I got the bestest massage ever. It was when I met Jonjon and Vanessa. That’s all I remember…

Coming to UCR was one of the best decisions I’ve made. Like most others, UCR wasn’t my first choice but it’s not as bad as people make it out to be. The school has a great environment and staff. They have so much more clubs than high school (idk how I’m going to survive). It was at UCR where I first made out with someone (yeah… shut up), first tasted alcohol,  first partied (really partied), where… where I gained freedom!! My life in Monterey Park was REALLY sheltered. Anywho, most importantly, I met awesome people at UCR. –> My roommate Katherine Taroma is the bestest roommate anyone can ask for. She’s been there for me since the first day I moved in. –>Same goes for the bestest big brothers Philip and Brian. The three of them have helped me through a many heartaches. And even though I’m stubborn and do not take their advice 90% of the time, I love them for keeping on advising me. I know it’s not easy to deal with a headstrong person. –> I’m also glad that I have VIP. I loved tokboxing with the few I knew during the summer and it’s been a great first quarter getting to know the rest them. Our Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner were very successful and I’m happy that my apartment didn’t get destroyed. –> I can’t forget to mention my Kuyas and Ates, Albert, Joe, Camille, and Melissa. Thank you to Kuya Joe for taking care of me when I was….. Thank you to Kuya Albert for being an unofficial family with me AND for encouraging me at a certain party AND being super awesome!! I haven’t gotten the chance to know Camille or Melissa yet, but I know our family will be great because of them. –> Lastly, Vanessa and Jonjon. They’ve both become my closest first year friends. Since school started, I’ve pretty much spent most of my time in Jon’s dorm. We’re going to be BFFs, he says. yeyy!! And while hanging out with him I met one of his best friends, Vanessa. Super cool person who listens to me vent about crazy stuff.

I will remember 2008 the most because of my old friends. Thank you to Marvin ge for ALWAYS being there for me. You really are the big brother I’ve always wanted. Thank you to Jessica Yang for telling me what I need to hear and not what I want to hear. Thank you Deborah Lau for sharing my thoughts on how stupid boys are. Thank you to Heiyan for being a really really great friend and FOP. Thank you to Eileen Lee for sharing my enthusiasm for Wong Fu and putting up with my fangirling. Thank you Nha for your company in FBLA and life. Thank you Angela for being my most mature younger friend. Thank you DT for being there for me through my heartaches. And lastly, Thank you Peter Ngo for bringing so much optimism to my life. There’s no more need to say how much I love these guys because they already know. They’ve all made me a better person. They’ve showed me the better side of life and most importantly, I am here because of their contributions.

And thank you to everyone else for helping me make 2008 a great one.

But there is also so much to look forward to in 2009

• Kollaboration 9
• ISA 2 in SF
• My 19th birthday
• More concerts
• Getting more band shirts
• Making new friends
• Making new memories

Here are my 2009 resolutions

1. Get to 100lbs
2. Stop procrastinating
3. Sleep before 3am on school nights
4. Get a tattoo of my Chinese name
5. Own a pair of Nikes

I hope everyone enjoyed 2008 as much as I did. OH WHAT? OH EIGHT!!

*All these pictures were taken by me :D

First Blog

I should be studying for my Microecon final but I decided to make a wordpress blog. yeyyy. I will try to start using this since I’m tired of xanga.